I feel so cold so alien so isolated
I don't understand what's happening
going on inside of me
stars burst behind my eyes
making me dizzy making me see red
blue and blissfully black
beat my fists and tear my hair
gnaw my lip and just sit and stare
at my walls covered in blood sweat and tears
pouring from every cell every orifice every pore of my body
I dig my nails into my flesh breaking
seeking understanding born of pain but
the despair shall not cease until I conquer
kill destroy this feeling that I feel inside me
cold isolated alienated loneliness.

- L.